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* Elaine Tee
* 20 omg!
* Warwick Uni, UK
* camwhore (sometimes) XD
* very lazy =p
* needs to exercise..
* wanna go to the beach!~ Pulau Perhentian!
* will always advise people to enjoy their secondary school life
* OMG Get a job in the UK/ London!br> * wants to go USA for hols

♥ loves

~ shopping
~ pink
~ reading fiction books
~ making people happy
~ glittery stuff
~ macha ice cream
~classical music

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Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Fears, breaking down moment and getting back up altogether

I am feeling so stressed out right now!!!! I have been living in denial that it would be fine. I haven't been studying very effectively these past few weeks. I m just studying for the sake of finishing it and not really focusing and absorbing everything. I have not touch a single past year paper. I m Freaking screwed right now. I need to start at least 2 papers tonight! I am DETERMINED TO.

Besides that, my business planning is going down the drain. Half my members is not doing things that I told them to do. And with only my capabilities, I dun think it's possible to get even a 2-2. =( I actually think this was the main cause of my breakdown. the dateline is 4th may and until now. we haven't even have a 1st draft yet and we wont be having a meeting this weekend since most of my members are only back on Monday. -,- I guess I am not a very good leader when it comes to dealing with problematic people... Need to be harsher to achieve results, ELAINE TEE!

I truly understand how it was like when my sister broke down during her first year. Cos I feel the same. I am so afraid of disappointing my parents who managed to send me all the way to the UK to study ACCOUNTING AND FINANCE when ACCA is so popular in Sunway. I dun even want to think about IF I was called back to resit in September because I WILL DEFINITELY NOT MAKE THAT HAPPEN. I m really sorry for playing a fool so far and not listening to my beloved mom and sister's advise that uni exams should not be taken lightly. I've learnt my lesson now.

On a brighter note, I am glad to have a chance to be closer to a friend of mine. Knew many things that I would probably never have known if this did not happen. Thank Paranormal Activity. =) These past few days were an enjoyable one. but it's time to face reality I guess. I'm glad to have it settled this well.

I m feeling so much better right now. =) Talked to my sister and she advised me on being firm. Loving her so much! advises from the old and wiser people. <3

I have been having insomnia this past few days and finally I know why... i did not even have the appetite to eat today. Only had a bowl of cereal for lunch and a packet of yogurt for dinner. @,@ bet i will be super hungry tomorrow. =D

Note to self: You can do this Elaine. Just work ass hard right now to cover up for the past mistakes that you have made. People fall all the time but the most important thing is to be able to stand right back up! =) xoxo